Deep down the memory lane

Deep down the memory lane,
I've left again in pain.
She is not with me yes it's true,
And she don't know from what pain I've gone through.
Loving her was all I've done,
And what she made of it just a fun.
Ignorance of her I've seen,
For the love in I've ever been.
Cursing myself was only thing,
Cause there's no light of hope to bling.
It was a one sided love for which I  still cry,
But I know she is not the star of my sky.
Even though I know she will never be mine,
But I am still unable to define.
That I am still waiting for her with the wandering eyes,
And telling to myself a big blunder lie.
Hey girl! One day you'll understand my pure feelings for you,
Those were so precious, so true.
Then it's been too late for you,
And that time you'll understand from what pain I've gone through.
                            -Deepanshu